Cause I'm alive!

I know it sounds strange but I feel really good today. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. This is not to say that I dont feel sorry for Lee because I do, and I'm sorry for letting him down when he so obviously still loves me, but I feel I can move on now and be me. We are still talking to one another, which is good as it was never my intension to turn my back on him and just walk away, we still have seven years and an illness between us. It will be nice if we can just remain friends and help each other through the difficult patch's in the future.

Work still sucks badly, Craig and me are going to try today to get off this shitty shift, neither of us want to work Saturday evenings. He's got a family and I've now got to much socialising to do!!