Bank Holidays

I've spent the last 5 nights with the mystery ( well its not if you REALLY think about it ) person. Things are going well and a lot of talking has been done. Saturday evening we went into London and painted the town very red indeed...haha, it pissed hard though, but never mind.

Today I went round my friend Garry's to play some drums in a new studio he's made in his garage. I've not played for months and was well rusty, but after ab out half an hour, it all loosened up and I was sort of back on form. I love playing drums, but with new neighbours and a new baby one side, and a miserable pair of bastards the other side, I cant practice indoors.

It's been a good weekend all in all, lets just hope the rest of the week goes the same way.

Good Weekend

I had a good weekend, better than I expected. I'm piss poor until next Wednesday 9 ( When I get paid ) and i haven't the funds to go out. I got an unexpected call on Friday evening , and somebody wanted to come round and stay, I of course said yes. This turned into all day Saturday aswell, which ended up with pizza and a DVD in the evening. He went home Sunday afternoon. It was totally unexpected and it was really really nice.

A suprising but a very nice weekend all in all!!

Whats Going On?

So what the fuck is going on today? MI5 and the Met police managed to thwart a massive terrorist cell that was going to blow up 9 British flights at the weekend. It turns out that these people were BRITISH muslims!! What the fuck?!

British people killing British and foreign citizans in the name of god. Our own killing our own. Its not the first time its happened of course, it happened last year with the tube and bus bombs, but its just so crazy. It's all done in the name of Allah.

We are used to terrorism because of the I.R.A. We are de-cencorsised to it in a way as it was something that happened regulaly. There's was a political protest, and they at least gave a warning that it was going to happen beofre the bomb went off. I'm by no means saying they were right to bomb, but it's not on the same level as all these plane bombings. That's another thing that piss's me off. When we were getting terrorised, no one really cared that much, infact, most of the money that went into the I.R.A. came from criminals in New York.

I personally think they are all spineless idiots who need to get a damn good grip on reality. I bet they wouldn't do it if some of they're family's were on the plane.

Fucking gutless idiot's...the lot of them.

I now sit and wait to either be kneecapped on my door step or be blow up!

Things In Perspective

I saw something today that had quite a profound effect on me. It certainly put a lot of stuff in perspective. I was driving round the shittiest motorway in England ( M25 ) and a lorry rammed a car from behind and pushed it into the central resevation.The car then caught fire and burned very quickly, which in turn set the truck on fire. We saw the truck driver jump from his cab and run away, but it wasn't for a little while that we noticed that we never saw anybody get out of the car. I saw on the news when I got home, that a Mum a dad they're two little children had burned to death in the car. 

It was really shocking and certainly gave me a kick up the arsehole. I realise how lucky I am to just be alive and walking about. We sat for 2 hours whilst the emergency service's attented to the scene. They opened a little emergency gate on the side of the motorway and slowly let some cars and smaller vans of the motorway to carry on our journeys. It only opened up 7 hours after the crash. I was lucky, I was able to get off the motorway, I wasn't a few vehicals in front and involved in the crash....I was lucky I came home tonight....someone has lost a lot of they're family tonight...I'm very lucky

First day back

This was my first day back at work after my 2 weeks off. Its been pissy and raining all day which sort of matched my mood. It wasn't a bad day on the whole, the traffic was quite light which was good, and I managed to dive back home for a longer dinner than is aloud ( somethings never change! )

I'm still upset about things I've done. I mean on a whole, three years ago everything was going well, then I got ill and fucked Lee's life up, and now everything is very confused.I dont know what I want or if I can find it, and do I want to find it???

Still In Love With You

Think Ill just fall to pieces
If I dont find something else to do
This sadness never ceases
Im still in love with you

My head, it keeps on reeling
Its got me in a crazy spin
Darling, darling, darling
Is this the end?

Still in love with you

They say time has a way of healing
Dries all the tears from your eyes
But darling its this empty feeling
My heart cant disguise

After all that weve been through
I try my best but its no use
I guess Ill keep on loving you
Is this the end?

Now that its all over, woman
Theres something I think you should know
Baby, baby, think it over
Just one more time before you go

Call on me baby
If theres anything I can do for you
Call on me baby
Help me see it through

Im still in love with you

Change of Plan

I've changed my mind about the pics, this is mainly because Antony and me are no more. I'm just going to put up the pics as they are. There are some good pics of The Penines where we found the natural spring and had a drink from it.

Another relationship gone pear shaped. I wont go into the reason, but its a bizzare one. What do I have to do to find love and keep it? I feel very isolated at the moment and very alone. I seem to spend more time by myself than with anyone.