Happy Easter Bitch!!

Happy fucking Easter my arse! Get a phone call this morning..lee " Hello happy easter can you come round I want to talk to you?" Stewart" Yeah course I can, you ok?" Lee " Yeah im ok i just need to talk to you".

So I goes round there at 1 oclock and get. " I'm really sorry but this isnt working its over"

Fucking nice one, easter sunday and i get dumped!! I know I cant really moan as i done it last year, but i worked my bollox off to make it work.

Anyway, this afternoon was very cool indeed, things have happened that im very pleased about and is totally coll and what ive wanted for a long time. More soon.

Welcome to the fucked up world of me, hang on its going to be a bumpy ride, but if things work out the way they seem to be going,it going to be a good one.

 

Job Hunt

I've been appying for jobs like a mad man this week, well 3 to be precise. Two driving jobs that are day work and not evenings, and a job as a runner working in a post production studio in London, and this studio is owned by Iron Maidens record company. How cool would that be if got that job!!

I was amazingly pissy at work yesterday. 13 drops and 11 of them were flats, and we're not just talking ordinary flats, these are the penthouses on the Thames that you can park anywhere near and have to drag all this shit about. To top my mood off, some jumped up fucking woman said to me QUOTE " Why should I lug my shopping about when I can pay someone like you to do it for me " UN QUOTE.That really really pissed me off, after I'd lugged her £200 shopping up 2 flights of stairs and up 7 floors in a lift. How I didn't tell her to fuck off I will never know.

Anyway I did see the very good looking Tim Vincent from TV yesterday. hmmm

feeling odd

I  feel A bit odd tonight.Yes im drunk, but isnt that when I let my heart pour out ay? I've been up for hours, as last night after the gig, I had such bad tinitus in my ears I could'nt sleep so I've been awake for a day and a half. I'm feeling very guilty for some reason.

I feel guilty for feeling so well,

Im feeling guilty for loving 2 people at the same time.

I feel guilty for having a nice car and enough money in the bank to tide me over when others are struggleing.

I feel guilty for having a job when others haven't and not being totaly happy with it.

I miss my old job so badly. I miss my old friends so much. I never thought it would be this bad. I still see Craig a lot, but I miss Rob. I haven't seen him since he left. Craig and Rob meant so much to me at Safeways, and I never thought it would end, but it has and I feel lost.

I cant seem to find what I want to do with my life.

Gig On

Tonight I've got a gig on. This is the first one for ages, and i'm bricking it a bit. I've sorted all my drums out and I've just got to remember everything. This time I must remember to tape up my hands to avoid the blisters that I got last time.

I've been off all week, just chilling out and catching up with some people that I haven't seen for a while. I've also became very good at online poker. Only play money though, not real stuff.

There's so many gigs this year that I just cant afford to go to them all. I'm going to the Foo Fighters and Motorhead in Hyde Park, and I really want to catch Twisted Sister if I can. Of course we will do Motorhead and Status Quo at christmas. Hopefully health will be good within the Quo camp this year, and the gigs will go ahead.

Well I've got to go and prepair for mine. I hope they have my rider sorted and they have taken all the blue M&M's out..lol

Got Whacked

Its been a busy week and weekend again. I went down to Southampton on Sunday ( mothers day, how bad of me!! ) to see my cousin play on his band. Its the first time I've seen them play and they were really good. It was only the 7th time they have played with they're new singer, and they were very tight.

On another not, there i was at work last night, sitting at a set of traffic lights on London's south circular, when I was hit from behind by a minibus. It was quite funny as there was not a scratch on my van, but the radiator and had split on her bus. It shocked me a bit afterwards, and today I've got a bit of a sore neck. I've got so much paperwork to do today aswell, even though the accident wasn't my fault. Oh well

From Beer To Eternity

Ive had a busy week with work and all. I've been delivering in London a lot and been to some stunning ( and expensive ) appartments just by the river. I think it was on Friday, I saw Callum Best ( son of football legend George Best ) just getting into his car in Wandsworth Road. He's even more good looking in real life.

I went out with Antony to watch Becky's boyfriends band play last night. They were very good and very loud. They were doing a battle of the bands thing, and they won this round. I've got to get myself sorted with a band.

On The Up!

Phew I'm a tired bunny this week. I've been doing mainly early's, and as its the time for the monthly paid lot to get they're money, they have been going made buying food, so weve been very busy this week.

Saturday night I went out with Craig and Ian to see a Led Zeppelin tribute band called Letz Get Zepped. They were really great. They did all the classics, and the guitarist even did the bit with the violin bow during Dazed and Confused, plus to my enjoyment, then bit with the theromin during Whole Lotta Love. I'm going to try and get Craig to come to see Deeply Purple with me again, they were really great aswell. Who's Who is coming up..might be worth a watch.

Apart from that I've not done much. I brought Lee a new mobile phone as hism was fucked, and I got him some new aftershave.

On Sunday we are going to Bristol to pick a new guitar that I got from E Bay. Its a rare Danelectro U2.. I cant wait..ive wanted one for ages